Sunday, April 19, 2015

Cry it out babe!

So I've just been really upset today over a million little things that may seem silly to some, but mean a whole lot to me. Of course you'd expect your loved ones to be there for you when you're down, but today? It's like nobody understands me and nobody can make me feel better.
I often wonder what type of personality I have. On the one hand I appear super strong and cheerful and full of life. But on days like this, which are very rare, it's like I can't even hold it together for myself. I'm super pensive, moody and highly irritable and it's like im forced to face and deal with all the tiny little worries I've had in the past. All those issues I've swept under the rug form a lumpy floor that trips me as skip along happily in life.
I started to unravel about an hour ago. I just had to excuse myself from everything and have a little cry In the privacy of my room. That's all it took to make me feel better; 30 minutes of waterworks. Wallowing in self pity And getting in touch with what I'm really feeling on the inside.
I re emerged feeling resolved. I had come to terms with what I could not change and made a plan to change that which I could.
It is perfectly okay to cry. You don't have to put up a strong front all the time even when you're not feeling it. Even the most 'together' of us have moments when we break down. It's perfectly normal. It's human. You're human. Be easy on yourself. It's going to be okay.


  1. I can totally relate with this. I know this is an old post, but I hope you are all right.

    1. Hey there! I'm doing much much much better now! Thanks for asking.

  2. Hi Ummi,

    I feel this way sometimes, I am a natural "internalizer", cheerful on the outside, but bottling up anxieties and worries on the inside, on some days I simply explode into a million angry pieces or tearful pieces. Lol

    Tears cleanse the soul. :-)

    I enjoyed reading this, it resonated with me.

    1. Aww Nedoux we are so alike. From my childhood with my family to my marriage now, I'm the one thats got to keep it together for everyone.

      We need to let it out every now and then.

      Thanks for all the love :)